so i have my history SOL tomorrow.... i've been hearing that its easy though so hopefully it turns out to be that way. my science SOL is on friday. im definatly happy that at least for those 2 tests we get to take them on the computer..so no more filling in a bubble sheet. i have been assigned however, the worst possible thing ever: a research paper. mrs. battista has assigned us a minimum 2 page paper on the topics she had up on the board. im not excited about this at all because i really have no idea how to do this. but luckily its not going to be due untill like..the end of this month. we really get the most horrid assignments in that class....

meme is coming though! my mom and her mom chatted on the phone last night so plans have been made and im really excited . of course there is a reason or 2 that im a tad nervous...but i'll get over it. i can't believe its actually going to happen

lunch was the best today because everyone who took the history SOL today went to my lunch! a ton of my friends were there and we were crazy ..our usual selves. emilia and i make up the stupidest things sometimes..but they're hilarious! " shimmy shimmy shake shake" lmbo. and katie is blissfully in love  with her boyfriend, owen. im glad she's happy again. i remember when hannah liked a guy named owen...lol..she was in love with his eyes..

anyway my room is a disaster zone because my mom cleaned the desk and stuff off so all that mess in on the floor. so i have to go clean...study..and then i might be back. and im so proud of jas...she wrote 4 pages already  ...its only been 2 days. this is definatly a record. i can't wait to read it..

love ya'll!

Doodle

hey i haven't updated in a while...i know its about time. so let me get started

i've been sick for the last 24 hours about...well..since yesterday morning. my tonsils are swollen and when i open my mouth they almost completely close off the back of my throat. so yep..my throat is sore and i had a fever. i've taken probably 7 motrins since yesterday morning..they really help. i went to school this morning..then my mom picked me up at 9 and took me to the doctors. they said since its only day one they can't tell if its a virus or bacteria..but they are leaning towards a virus ( thats a good thing ) because they said that a virus will just run its course and i wouldn't need any medicine for it. they did a strep test just in case and it came back negative. my dad said he thinks..or thought..i had tonsilitis. i guess i will have to wait and see if this gets better.

we went to walmart after that to pick up some things to give to my cousin jenny and my aunt lori for mother's day. my parents are going down to newport news for zoey's baptism (jenny's baby girl) on sunday. i picked up some notecards for english and the veet bladeless razor kit. i haven't used it yet..but i will probably tonight or tomorrow morning.

yesterday there was major drama. why do guys have to be so inconsiderate and heartless and immature? they all aren't...but it really wouldn't hurt some too try having a heart. katie was going to break up with her boyfriend because she didn't feel like she was 100% commited to the relationship and she didn't think it was fair to him. but somebody she told..told him..and he made sure he was the 1st to do it. but what really hurt her is that he told everyone that he broke up with her because she didn't like him anymore. thats not true...and she was so upset yesterday afternoon. he was harrassing her...she told him she didn't want to talk to him..so what did he do? followed her around..and waited for her outside of places he knew she's be. on our way to gym he was there..and i shouted at him to leave her alone as we walked away. we come out of the locker room and go into the gym..and guess who's there. he doesn't even have our gym period. he ended up storming out..flung the dorr open and it smashed against the wall..and she started crying again. we were all trying to comfort her...but she was really hurt. after gym i went to her locker with her..as well as zach and erin. he was waiting at the entrance to the gym hall though..because she has soccer practice afterschool. zach went with her around the other side of the building to avoid him. when i went by him i said she doesn't want to talk to you. and he goes "thats fine!" in a super sarcastic tone. it made me so mad.

things seemed a bit better this morning. katie was emotionally stable..and he didn't follow her or ask to talk to her at all. of course as we walked by his group of friends one of em said "hey there's patrick's ex" in that type of voice that's purposly too loud because they want you to hear. uhhgg. but i have no idea what happened the rest of the day there...so i will find out monday.

and of course..im having my wonderful history SOL next week on wednesday. the one i need to really really pass is my algebra one. im not worried about science or english. im most worried about algebra and maybe history...i really hope i can do good. im trying to study..so i hope it helps.

the weather has been truly dreadful..at least today. it was cold and cloudy ( no sun AT ALL ) and very windy. blech. but it's going to clear up the weekend and by monday it'll be back up to temps in the 80's! hello sunshine..

the countdown till meme gets here is drawing to a close. only about a week left! they will be here next weekend. i can't even believe they are actually coming..a truthfully i won't completely believe it untill they are in the car driving up here. because its not enough for their plans to still be set the night before..since there was an incident where they were getting in the car to leave..and suddenly all plans changed. they really couldn't help that though. it was personal matters...i was mad at 1st..but i don't think twice about it now. im a little nervous about them coming..because im a little unsure of seeing mrs. heigl ..im sure my nerves are gonna frazzle a bit the night before. i know she's still umm..dissapointed in me at least..for what happened..and although i wrote her a letter..meme said her mom didn't have any comments on it. or at least no comments she felt like telling. *gulp* so im just..very unsure about the situation. not good.

sorry i wrote so much. i haven't updated in such a long time..that this was only today and yesterday! i'll be trying to do a better job though so i don't have to put these huge entries up. anyway..thanx for bearing with me. i love ya'll!

<33Doodle

today was an excellent day! ok well..school was really nothing special today. the good part of my day was after school. ok well..i got home and then jasmine called from the bus..lol..i didn't know she had a cell phone! lmbo. anywaaayz...she told me that she was going to go running and asked if i wanted to come with (btw...congrats jas on making the team...for anyone who doesn't know she's now a stafford cheerleader! holla! lmbo...too bad you didn't even tell me! hmmph...) lol..so she got home and jas, denisha, and i went for a mile long run. i went the whole way without stopping barely! whoo! but taking 8 minutes to finish it...sucky. but its better than the last time i ran it with jas..i got over 10 minutes..so i beat it this time by over 2 minutes. thats good then. i still have to get back to my old time of 6 minutes and 15 seconds.

we were hoping for it to start raining on us..we wanted to run in the rain, how fun that would have been! but when we had all finished..we sat on my draveway and talked a bit..it was sprinkling and actually kind of cold because the wind was blowing. jasmine was going to go to sleep after we ran..but decided she'd just go to bed early instead. so i got the movie and went nextdoor (julianne was with us now) and we went up into jasmine's room and watched it until j and i had to leave to come eat dinner. they are finishing the movie at their house. jasmine said it was better than she thought it would be...  and by the way..thank you jas for spending some time with me....i did miss you so...

so im just talking to meg right now..and audrey and now gab mcgowen  *gasp* i haven't talked to her since i left RES. wow...

but i'll leave you all with this. love ya'll!

<33Doodle

oh and...i just found out something today. there really is such a candy as Razzles. micheal pulled out a pack and asked if i wanted one..and imagine my surprise to find out they actually exist!...maybe im just dumb. lol..but oh well.. bye!

watched A Series of Unfortunate Events today..ate Mcdonalds..my mom went to the mall to run some "errands" which was really going to the mall (without me) but its ok because she came back with stuff for me from american eagle and aeropostale so its all good!

jasmine said that she was sorry for not spending any time with me......but i haven't even seen her since she said that . ye-ah..o-k....all i know is she was gone all today because she was out with christina and emily. *sigh*

loved talkin to ya on the phone meg..even though i was concentrating a little too much on the music videos and not the convo.. lol..

love ya'll

<33Doodle

i didn't mean to make it seem as if every guy is out to "get some" because they aren't. sometimes it just seems like it...........sometimes you wonder which ones you can trust to hold your fragile heart in their hands...and not break it. but when i find him...it will be worth the long wait...

<33Doodle

today..although cloudy and kinda chilly..was a much better day. i bummed it at school with sweatpants, flip-flops, and a t-shirt.. comfy! i had a sub in a bunch of my classes...so there really was no work to do. i finished my algebra hw so i don't have any hw for the weekend! holla! lmbo..jena had the funniest...yet very very sexy/romantic dream..from what she told us at lunch. i want to have her dream..lol..with maybe a few variations to it . i got home..we had a different bus driver and she stopped a little way up the street...barely any at all..like right in front of micheals house actually. i was like " now i have to be the one to walk today for a change..lol" and he was like " lol i'll walk you to your door then." and he came over and hooked arms with me and we went to my house. don't think nothing ya'll cause he has a girlfriend! lmbo..but he is the nicest guy ever!! guys are always wonderin why its so hard to get the girls they want...well if they weren't rude and always just out trying to hook-up and just get what they want from a girl and then leave...they wouldn't have problems. like its really so difficult to be a gentleman...or to at least care about the girl's feelings and not about what you can get. lord somebody stop me please . lol..

i got the new Seventeen summer makeover issue... thats hott! also we got A Series of Unfortunate Events. YES!! im so happy cause i've been dying to see that movie again...hehe meg..see liam's serious face haha im jk!! i do really want to watch it though so im glad we finally have it.

we watched a movie about club drugs in health...omg they showed the places that those pills are made...they are so de-susting! one place had a bathtub with the chemicals in it and it was grimy and black like tar with a moldy floor and buckets of chemicals all over the place. another had the mixing ingredients in...a toilet ..like there is no other place in the world to do it in..but yes it was in a toilet and it had a mop sticking out of it that they used to mix it together. we were told the story of 15 year-old Samantha Reid who was slipped GHB while watching movies with her friends. the guys got her and her friends drinks..and thought it would be fun to get them a little wild. so they poured a little into each glass. but the one guy slipped and poured too much into hers...too much turned out to be enough to kill 8 GROWN MEN. they decided to serve the drinks anyway. and just by chance samantha got the glass with the lethal amount of GHB. she slipped into a coma..went brain dead..was put on life support..and died 18 hours later. the story was told by her mother. its sad to know that she was only my age...i consider myself too young to die. and she was too. she had a whole life yet to live. it was all taken from her. she never even knew what happened. her friends said she just layed down on the couch and it looked like she went to sleep. she never woke up. the boys who did this are serving 5-15 year sentences. small price to pay for a life that was stolen forever.

<33 Doodle

im rather bummed out right now . i wasn't exactly thinking that mrs. biggers was going to say i could spend the night tomorrow...but there was always that chance i had to look forward to. but now julianne's friends can't sleep over here. so i'm not going to be able to spend the night next door because whatever sliver of a chance i had at being there tomorrow night is now gone. mrs biggers isn't going to allow us both to spend the night. so once again im going to spend my friday night with degrassi, ice-cream, and IM . what a party...

had a sub in spanish today. he is really young looking...he looks like he's still in college. he was really nice..and he was the 1st sub teaching our spanish class who actually understood what he was writing on the board  and actually knew how to help us if we had a question. our other subs had no clue whatsoever what they were writing..they just copied what senora lorenzo wrote down for them to put on the board for us and then gave us worksheets and had less of a clue than us . and of course there were the usually class cut-ups..lacy got so mad at khan that she said "if you don't shut up im gonna come over there and bitch-slap you" it was rather funny ...even the sub was laughing. when the guy called role khan was like 'you can just call me khan-man...khan-mister..khan-nivorous.." his friends were laughing...but he's our sub for tomorrow too so..im interested to see how it'll go..

boys are rather umm..immature at times. like when they try and put a coin down the back of your pants..

im hoping for a decent day tomorrow. love ya'll

<33Doodle

hey everyone. ok well...school today was rather fun. patrick asked katie out...i dunno the dude but i wuv katie to death she's like my best friend at school...we have some crazy times! i gotta have her come over sometime. actually i gotta go to one of her soccer games.... she's so happy..she's been hoping he'd ask her out like all last week...so finally he did on friday.

on another note..my next door neighbor best friend hasn't been around much... she used to like..want to hang out all the time..and now its been over a week and not only has she not even called...denisha either...but like..she's not even busy everyday but when she isn't busy she's been at like..other people's house or at the gym i think...i dunno really. i thought maybe we'd actually hang out on the weekend but that didn't happen..i have no idea where she was but i know courtney slept over at their house twice... i seriously don't think their mom likes me at all. cause she lets all their friends sleep over their like..whenever..practically every weekend..but its like..its way hard for me to be able to. probably half of it is cause when i sleep over julianne's gotta be there too so its like..her mom can't just have one person...she's gotta have 2 everytime..and im loud enough for the both of us so its more like 3 people. im like..trying to be more quiet but it never matters cause i don't think their mom is ever gonna be very fond of me.

so julianne is gonna be having 2 of her friends sleepover this weekend if my dad says yes..he's currently thinking about it. i really haven't any idea what im gonna do when they come. last time i had a friend over julianne didn't have to suffer here cause jas came and rescued her. but jas sure probably isn't gonna rescue me cause like..she said she wants to sleep over here too (sorry girl but thats not gonna happen cause my parents aren't gonna say yes..specially since denisha would want to also) and she wants to take whatever the girl's names are down to this guy's house...my mom won't let julianne go though so thats not gonna happen either. but im thinking this is kinda gonna suck cause im not gonna have anyone to hang out with! boo...

but maybe i'll find something to do. i dunno what exactly..probably i won't find anything. but maybe i'll console myself by calling meme and having a long phone convo since she gets free phone convos on the weekends. who knows...we might even have a huge 3-way like we did last time! lmbo! and maybe she'll have tyler's # by then.. haha! lmbo..wouldn't that be fun?

anyway....love ya'll nearly and dearly...

<33 Doodle

well basically today was boring/boring/..well..you get the idea. i didn't leave the house once..cause i didn't have anywhere to go. it rained and was cloudy for most of the day (guess it picked the right day to suit my mood) and im just glad this day is over. finally my mom will be back..and finally i might be able to get out of my house. i feel bad for thinking being here with only my dad would ruin my weekend...because he wasn't bossy or irritating or anything...he stayed downstairs or outside the entire day. and what makes me feel bad is that..unless i was getting something to eat (which only happened twice..lunch and dinner) or washing the dishes..i didn't go down there at all. so..as lonely as i felt today...i bet my dad missed my mom's company as well. maybe i should have gone downstairs and watched tv with him for a little while or something....now i wish i had. im sorry dad.

julianne..well..she wasn't too annoying today...since she was my only company i guess she was ok. we had a few laughs and such. i basically chatted online with megan the whole day..talked on the phone with her for about 5 minutes as well. some good conversations.....don't date someone who is too old for you *cough cough* lmbo..ya know what i mean meg?  haha she's the best...love ya meme!

i talked online to courtney too...julianne came in and wouldn't believe that it was her and not jasmine...w/e. but she just left..she didn't even say she was leaving..i didn't even know she was gone untill the away message came up and i was like " thanx" . jas and denisha and courtney are having some sort of spa night or whatever... lord i haven't seen jas or denisha for more than a few minutes since like..last saturday or something...so..basically this whole week has sucked big time cause i have had nobody to talk with or anything (cept for meg...thank the lord) cause i don't have a million and one things to do. maybe i should get a million and one things to do...

anyway..sorry for the long rant...but its nice to be able to let it out somewhere..since jas has the notebook...and its been like..at least 2 weeks.. not that that is any surprise..

love ya'll dearly

<33 Doodle

hey everyone! i haven't been writing to much on here..i know shame shame. i'm gonna try and get it together..

i went running today cause it wasn't raining. i actually really love to run. not in boiling heat..but..if the weather is nice, i just really like to do it. a lot of people hate to run..lol..nobody ever enjoys it. i don't know what it is though...but..esspecially when you 1st get going..you have this huge burst of energy that makes you just want to go so fast...but you don't and it slowly fades away and lets you think. when i run i actually can't think of too much..so if im stressing over something...im not when i run. all i can hear is shoes hitting pavement and my breathing. then when i slow down and walk..i can think. and everything runs through my head and all my emotions just..fly away from me...everything built up inside..anger or frustration..it becomes the ground i pound across. and plus it means i don't feel guilty eating anything later or sitting on the couch to watch a movie..because i know i did something. lol....plus i have the motivation of hoping my butt and legs will get in better shape before summer.

so..this weekend isn't going to be too much fun. my mom is going to ohio. its makes me want to cry just thinking about it. she'll be gone early...in a few hours actually...and won't be back till sometime on sunday. she's going with her friend, mrs. whitney, there..because mrs. whitney wants to get a dog..and she wants it from ohio..so my mom is keeping her company. i really wish she wasn't going. i miss her already and im hoping i'll wake up in the morning to find the trip is canceled....because ohio is having bad weather..they have snow on the ground and probably more for tomorrow. but i know that won't happen. so im stuck this weekend...with only my little sister and my dad. she hasn't even left yet and i want her to come back home..

so finally a long entry for everyone. love ya'll dearly,

<33 Doodle